I felt it as I gently nodded off.

So real, my screams of panic and terror muted by the overwhelming silence of loneliness, failure and disappointment.

Nobody cared anyway, so why should they now?

I was naive to think that even though I felt the pressure on my skin… my face… my chest compressed as my head felt as though it was going to explode into a million parts. My innocent nature wasn’t prepared for this brief nightmare, stretching my mind deep into my pillow, leaving the rest of my physical body to the vultures.

How foolish of me to operate like all systems go after nearly suffocating in the sadness of my past few years.

I know now that the nightmare that likely only lasted 12 seconds was an eternity of unaddressed trauma.

Time to wake up.

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